i've been in tacloban for 2 weeks now and i never met or talked to people except my family. i never go out except to go to the gym alone or visit my lola's house with my family. i watch tv, i smoke, i listen to music, i read books, and i'm really fine doing just that. although i talk and text with kat and manila friends through a satellite.

incidentally, i went to church too, once. when it was part of the mass where i had to turn to the people around me to say "peace," i just did it to my mother and looked up front after that. to me, it's meaningless to do that to any stranger who i think is going to be a part of my life for not even one second. i'm probably wrong to think this, i know.

i'm writing this because in one of the books i've read, it said that sometimes, people use thought to not participate in life and that is a bad thing. so i guess i don't participate enough. i really don't know why this is but it doesn't make me sad.

anyway, i want to thank the people i've communicated with (often feebly) in one way or another within the past 2 weeks: kat, jem, jof, dyan, nina, dee, maryconi, bon, kathryn, noemi, tina, gap, joseph, and jolly. thanks for boosting my life participation level up one notch.