he was a coward squeezed under pressure that was quite tremendous for him. with much responsibilities and great expectations of him, high school became hades and prison, naturally. he could have done better but that was him.

he was valedictorian but feels unworthy. he was leader of some organization he caused three thousand pesos because of stupidity of which he was too feeble to apologize. incidentally, he was known to be best in religion which is funny and pathetic at the same time.

worst of all, he considered no one as close friends because he was incapable of holding up such connections. beyond it all, he was fucking hapless and alone....

he was me.

i have changed since then and i have no regrets. although if i had to live my life again, i won't do it. i'm never going through the same ordeal.