last night i did what i never should do. i succeeded in making my sister and her family feel unwelcome in our home whose monthly bills she pays. it would be an understatement to say i had hurt her feelings.
i was angry. and for the nth time, i am reminded that i am capable of doing or saying really hurtful, wrong things when i am angry.
now my guilt is torturing me and i am awful sorry.
but lucky for me, she has already forgiven me.. really lucky of me.

..damn myself.

i had asked a wise friend what he does when he's angry and hating. he said he talks himself out of it. he said god's peace surpasses all understanding; it does not depend on the circumstance; it overlooks all conditions. he told me to have faith and pray for His peace to be upon me.