your love is unmerited.. universal, unchanging, unbending.
whatever i do, however much i've sinned, no matter how many times i've turned my back on you, you stubbornly love me.
for a few months, i had been feeling empty. something was lost. and this wasn't the first time.
i love kat and we're happy. but it's not enough. at first i was afraid to tell her about this because i couldn't accept that what we have is not nearly adequate.
few days ago, with kat's help, i realized it was you i had unconsciously turned away from. and this wasn't the first time. she told me the emptiness i had been feeling, the hunger for something i couldn't figure out, was your way of calling me back to you.
right after she said that, i was blown away. that was it. i felt so undeserving yet so special that you're calling me.
you are my answer! and only in you will i be truly happy.